A journey, a long time ago ….

high-altitude-route-map-1312429It seems so long ago that I wrote the novel Eternal Shades of Christ in response to the horrendous 50 Shades phenomena. And now, so soon the second film is about to be released.

I wrote the book (I think now looking back) because I hated the idea that people were buying so wholeheartedly into the idea of hate and violence as love. I wrote it because I really felt that God wanted me too.

I worked a lot out for myself writing it – the few people who have bought it on Amazon tell me it made think about the nature of their faith. And I had two e mails from people who’d found it when they had nothing and went on to have everything as it encouraged them to look up the only real thing that matters – the awesome love of Jesus. (And those two people make it all worthwhile.)

And, through the terrific journey writing it took me on (all courtesy of Jesus) changed who I was. I changed jobs. I spend money on getting places where I could make a  difference – yes through faith – but mainly through action. And I changed – inwardly, heartfeltly.

And the shadow of that film coming out again makes me take stock again. I  want to repost something I wrote last year because – to everyone preparing to throw money at a film celebrating something which can never be love – it’s a starting point of explanation as to why that whole ethos – of humiliation, of domination, of hurt – has nothing for me.

And This Is Why …..

And when when they ask me: this is why –

Because He makes me tall when I am surrounded by those who seem taller

Because He gives me heart when my heart has stopped.

Because He does not allow me to be silent when silence is complicity by another name.

Because He does not let me filter the truth to be the truth I want.

Because He shows me a target far beyond the target that my own eyes find.

Because He redefines what is the end and where lies the horizon.

Because He floods nights with sunlight.

Because He shows me that a crown is made of rags and tears for others.

Because He takes the world that was before Him and rearranges every piece of it.

Because He reinvents.

Because He is the voice of who He knows I can be.

Because He changes everything.

Because He is Nazarene. Because He is King.

Because I am His believer, His follower, His doulos.

Because He is.

Messiah. Light. The one true way.

copyright Emily Silver 2016

High Altitude Route Map  Image: FreeImages.com/ AkinHos

CAPS LOCK ON.

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i try to understand this love

and realise that love is not understandable

residing, as it does, nowhere in particular

but being there just the same –

 

an ache through life, through the dna of my bones, my gut:

an intensity of wanting,

of striving to love You back so much,

so hopelessly,

so totally and yet a million miles away from the love you give me –

my lower case.  Your CAPS LOCK ON:

shouting out Salvation, Eternity  and a promise of new life.

 

my promises (sometimes) pencil,

Your inks watertight, permanent.

(futures and forevers.)

 

Copyright: Emily Silver 2016

 

Maybe storms.

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The room darkens:

outside the sky slips into gray,

the breeze ups into wind

and people move from walks into jogs into runs.

(Best to be home when the storm comes,

when the rains hit hard and the threats beat on the front door

in a hammer blows.)

 

And I stop:

And I feel the first drops of water

and the upsurge of nature all around me

and I realize – suddenly – that with You beside me

there is no fear anymore,

no battering down of hatches,

of ignoring what is or what may be.

 

You hold me –

in the physical world and in my heart.

You hold me –

emotionally and spirit.

 

Let whatever be, let whatever come.

I will stand beside You

and feel the entire spectrum of the world.

 

You, my fellow walker, my King.

 

copyright emily silver 2016

Image: Christ in the storm on the sea of Galilee, Ludolf Backhuysen

And this is why.

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And when when they ask me: this is why –

Because He makes me tall when I am surrounded by those who seem taller

Because He gives me heart when my heart has stopped.

Because He does not allow me to be silent when silence is complicity by another name.

Because He does not let me filter the truth to be the truth I want.

Because He shows me a target far beyond the target that my own eyes find.

Because He redefines what is the end and where lies the horizon.

Because He floods nights with sunlight.

Because He shows me that a crown is made of rags and tears for others.

Because He takes the world that was before Him and rearranges every piece of it.

Because He reinvents.

Because He is the voice of who He knows I can be.

Because He changes everything.

Because He is Nazarene. Because He is King.

Because I am His believer, His follower, His doulos.

Because He is.

Messiah. Light. The one true way.

 

copyright Emily Silver 2016

 

High Altitude Route Map  Image: FreeImages.com/ AkinHos

Orlando.

A very brief quote from a book I wrote some years ago that came back to me as I prayed for clarity, for sense. Seemed appropriate, seemed like it was something to hold on to.

1024px-Rainbow_flag_and_blue_skiesLove wins. We have to believe that because that is the foundation of our faith and of Jesus.

“Jonathan pulled out his cell phone and began to type.

 ‘I must speak to those people who have distorted your view of faith. I’m sorry you felt confused, Amy. I really am. There is, I assure you again, no elite. And, similarly, no one is ostracized or forbidden. Christ’s love is a rainbow of equal bands from red through to violet and every possible shade in between. Is the orange more beautiful or valued than the indigo? The yellow than the green?’ “

Diamond

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You were not content to just “be perfect,”

to just dazzle and blind

in magnificent prisms of light from afar.

 

You wanted more and so aimed “higher”

even when there seemed to be no “higher.”

 

And You found a new perfect in imperfections

(counter intuitive geology)

an unrealized rarity in inclusions and sins,

in faults and choice,

abrasions and flaws and then finally

in humanness and death.

 

And then brighter even than before,

a rebirth,

a precious new beginning,

an invitation to all.

 

copyright emily silver 2016  

 

 

 

 

Turbo charge.

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And the difficulty is in the telling,

in the making them understand that this is unlike anything they know;

in communicating that they walk like humans,

they fight like people

from the twitch of their muscles and the depth of hearts,

But we are different now.

We walk enhanced,

fight beyond failures long after the heart is dead.

we walk on air streams,

fight with allies and angels.

We are the army of Jesus,

we are the power of His love, mighty unending.

 

Turbo charged.

 

copyright emilysilver 2016